The magic of tidying

[Meowmy]

@Dimity hi dimity. Life can be so hard. I grew up in dysfunctional family. Which became out of control. Father died. Mother got in control.i went psychotic. Brother had yo have an intervention order.i lost my career, my family,no friends,no money and sick with MI.

[Dimity]

Hi @Meowmy . Good to hear from you. Yes my family was/is dysfunctional too. I lost careers. No friends. But somehow got by. MI was a roller coaster. Don't understand why I'm still here. But here we all are.

[Dimity]

I'm still learning @Meowmy .

[Meowmy]

@Dimity @AuntGlow @Jynx good morning cool friends, am practising accepting imperfections of myself ha. Wish you a good day.

[Dimity]

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Hi @Meowmy good thinking, I should try it myself. Have a good day.

Today chores and shopping, and perhaps garden. Wish: tidy livingroom. 

[AuntGlow]

Aww, that's great @Meowmy! How are you practicing self-acceptance today?

It sounds like this perfectionist part of you has been through so much and therefore needs lots of love and soothing... We'll get there. 💛💛

[AuntGlow]

I love that you are so connected to your green sensibilities - is this something you could continue to evolve with over time? As in, can you create some small projects?

Also, you flow with your words really beautifully @Dimity! 🥰

It sounds like connecting here is really helpful for you, so I am glad to know you have this space to share what you are going through. 

Feeling paralysed in a freeze response makes so much sense... it seems like you're feeling quite stuck, in a way. And that would be really, really hard. What do you have the most control over/capacity for right now? 

YES - I am looking at my mess of a room right now and thinking, a clean space would help me organise my thoughts... maybe we can help each other! 🤩

[Meowmy]

@AuntGlow hey Auntglow, hope you had a good day. Thanks for supporting my journey of recovering from personality issues. I felt very insecure after been to an unfamiliar setting of heart scan. But I worked through and was able to feel okay in the mood.   Hope you will have a good evening 

[Dimity]

@AuntGlow last time I saw my counsellor she advised me to distinguish what I could control from what I can't,  too. Ɓut I'm having trouble untangling it. It feels I should be capable (if I made the effort and wasn't stupid/ignorant/lazy/physically and mentally unhealthy). I know l lose track of time and have brain fog which doesn't help. So I need to work on that  and try to visualise  what needs to be done and me doing it. That must sound crazy, that I can't picture what I want to work towards. Something's dead inside. 

[tyme]

Hearing you @Dimity . Is it sorta like you can't see the forest for the trees?

I feel my brain is often like that and I have to take a step back to really analyse what I can and can't control. And the hard part is letting go of what we can't control. 

Hugs to you. It's been great to see you.