I can’t cope

[Captain24]

Yeah.. I just can’t face the day @Ru-bee 

Im feeling very low and dark. That, I just don’t want to be alive feeling. 

How are you? 

[Ru-bee]

Yeah okay, one of those days @Captain24 I'm glad that you were able to stay in today 

I'm doing okay, not a heap going on over here. 

Are you feeling like staying in bed is keeping you safe at the moment? Is the anything that the forums can do to support you through the rest of the day?

I am sadly just about to be finished for the day, but lots of others are still about 💜

[Captain24]

I don’t think there is anything anyone can do @Ru-bee 

Yes my bed is safe. it’s the best I’ve got. 

Have a good night. 

Im not sure anyone is around but that’s ok. It doesn’t matter

[Captain24]

I just need some space but both dogs feel the need to be on me. They won’t leave me alone. I’m doing my best to not yell at them. It’s not their fault I’m horrible. I hate myself for it. 

[Captain24]

I’m not sure if anyone is following along or even cares. I don’t blame anyone. 

It’s a real struggle right now. It’s mood not withdrawal. I think anyway. 

I’ve taken my meds which was challenging. I’m hoping that they kick in soon. 

[tyme]

Yo, what's happening @Captain24 ?

[Captain24]

I didn’t think you were around until late tonight @tyme 

Just feeling really really down today. Im struggling with doing anything. I’m too tired. I’m too exhausted. I’ve got nothing. 

How are you going? 

[tyme]

I'm a bit everywhere.

Also, should let you know, tomorrow, we have a whole of org (SANE) conference all day so I won't be on. @Tolly our counsellor will be holding the fort and well as someone else.

I'm sorry that today is tough. Do you keep a record of your mood to see if there are any trends?

[Captain24]

Thanks for the heads up @tyme 

I don’t know this @Tolly  person so I’m a bit unsure. I hope it’s an awesome day for you though. I use to love conferences when I went many moons ago. 

I don’t keep a mood diary but I really should. I need to make it a habit. 

My meds have knocked me for six. So if I stop talking it’s means I’ve fallen asleep not anything else. 

[tyme]

Speaking of meds, I can't even remember if I took mine... @Captain24  I'm so bad with meds... 

I hope the new day is better for you. I'm not sure if you find that sometimes, you can go to bad feeling so crap, but wake up totally okay too. (I'm also aware that sometimes you can also wake up feeling crap too).

I used to have a mood diary, but I never followed through with it. However, I use 'cycle tracking' on my phone and the trends are so amazing... I never thought I was 'regular' until started tracing data. So I'm thinking it can be similar for moods. I used to use a mood app and you can write notes to see if it was hormone related, diet related or sleep related.

Hope Pix and Jett are giving you some peace. I've got a niece next to me because she is not going to school tomorrow. They have school camp but she didn't go.