I can’t cope

[Captain24]

I’m watching the last 2 episodes of last season. So hopefully that helps @rav3n.

I feel like I’m a burden everywhere. I don’t belong anywhere. I was doing ok before I went to bed. Now I’m a complete mess. It’s so exhausting not knowing how I’ll feel from one hour to the next. I’m feeling pretty bad. 

It’s ok. I’m going in by choice. I want to redo the course I did last August. I’ll also be able to see some friends, see my psych in person and just have some R & R. 

[tyme]

Hey @Captain24 ,

What's happening?

So much happening on this side - not in a bad way. Just a lot of stuff happening!

What's happening on your side?

[Captain24]

Hey @tyme 

I’ve had 2 ok nights at work. Felt good when I came home this morning. Tired but good. I went to bed unmedicated and couldn’t sleep. So I’m really tired and really emotional. My mood is so low. So low. I’m not really ok.

You sound busy. Anything you can share? 

[tyme]

Our forums team is growing. We are now hiring staff from outside Melb/Vic which is exciting. But it does mean I will be spending more time training others and doing other things outside the forums @Captain24 . I'll still pop in when I can though.

It sounds like you are very tired. I'm feeling a bit that way, but I also feel pumped to get things done. So I'm a bit torn.

Do you have anything planned for tonight?

[Captain24]

I don’t like change @tyme. People always say that it’s good, it’s for the best, but is it really for those that the changes affect. It gives me anxiety that it won’t be the same around here. 

I guess I knew you would move on eventually. It sounds good for you though. Right up your alley. 

Sorry that just made me cry. 

Im an idiot. 

[Bow]

Just said the same thing about change on my thread @Captain24 @tyme 

[tyme]

You're right. Change is scary. I totally agree with that. 

Just so you know, I'm not going anywhere. If anything, I'm doing much more here! 

Change is also big for me, so I wanted to let you know earlier. Honestly speaking, my eyes are always on the forums and will continue to be. Nothing changes there.  

I'm sorry I made you upset @Captain24 

[Captain24]

Thanks for the heads up @tyme Better to be fore warned. 

I’ve completely lost it. The last time I cried like this it was an hour and a half. 

It’s ok. I’m an idiot for getting upset. I’ve been awake for 24 hours. I’m tired. I want to take the meds that I’m addicted to to go to sleep. But that’s not going to help come off them. I’ve been thinking about them all day. Being addicted has made the withdrawals so much harder.

Im just holding on by a thread right now. I know it’s not recovery-focused but I don’t have it in me right now. 

[Captain24]

Sorry @Bow. I didn’t see it. But I guess we are on a similar page

[tyme]

Hugs @Captain24 .

Take a big deep 

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