I’ve just climbed into bed @AuntGlow
Little Captain needs a lot of love and reassurance. There is lots of not being good enough, lots of being unloved and unwanted. That’s probably too much.
It’s hard. I take things so personally. I hate it but it’s just me. One of my many flaws.
I don’t do change and I actually thought I was doing it right but I guess not. I thought using my safety plan and trying things was recovery focussed but I guess I need to figure out what recovery focussed is. It feels like we have to be ok. I doesn’t feel like there is room for not being ok.
I have some deep dark stuff happening tonight and it’s not recovery so I’ve had to sit with them on my own. No outlet. That’s why I feel so alone. That’s why I feel like I don’t fit the mould anymore.
