My Mosaic

[Bow]

I’m not sure about the ndis @tyme  i just hear so much bad stuff about it, how it’s such a nightmare. You can’t access psychology or psychiatry via it anyways I don’t think and that’s what I’d mainly want it for. 

aww I was just looking at pics of the kittens.  The foster care coordinator actually contacted me a few days ago with a possible placement. She had a 2 yr old female cat who was born with a birth defect in her eye. She was having one eye removed and needed somewhere to recover. I just wasn’t sure we would be a suitable place. With our dog, my cat, my daughter, that can all be a bit chaotic and loud and just with the layout of our new house it might be a bit difficult. 

[tyme]

Fair enough re the NDIS. I get why it may be more of a hassle for you if it doesn't give you the supports you need.

As for the fostering, it sounds so fulfilling, but I can see that it can be hard if you have a dog, cat and LIttle miss D with you already! Look, i reckon D will be super responsible, but I don't know what your dog and cat are like 🙂

I'd forgotten you had your own dog and cat too. @Bow 

So besides the appointments tomorrow, any other plans?

[Bow]

It gets me out of the house and with other people @AuntGlow 

they use to do colouring in week after week after week. I was so sick of it. I colour in with my daughter…. And if I really wanted to colour in I could just stay at home, until my CM reminded me that it gets me out of the house and with others. So I go and u try to have something in my bag prepared to do if they are going to do something I’m not keen to do. Which they are fine with. 
but yeah it’s just the overstimulation that I need to manage. And if I’m really not ok and don’t think I can manage it I don’t go. Or I go and stay a bit and then leave. The staff are pretty good at picking up on when things aren’t going so ok. 

they do run other groups, but I’m not much interested in them. They do a chill and chat Tuesdays that I thought of going to, but I’d probably just sit and listen. 

[Bow]

Yep @tyme one dog called lulu who is super naughty and untrained. She’s mums dog. Mr Groot is my cat. He is so beautiful and has suddenly become such a smoocher and wants to be on my lap, which he has never done before! Mr Groot was my first foster cat fail. I adopted him. 

No other plans really. Maybe I’ll get down in the garage and do some more work on the furniture I’m up cycling. Depends how I feel after my appointment. 

Thinking I’m gonna try sleep. 
thanks for keeping me company tonight @tyme @AuntGlow 

[AuntGlow]

My pleasure @Bow! I shall respond properly to your last message tomorrow, I hope you get some well-deserved rest tonight. 💕

[tyme]

Good night @Bow 

"Mr Groot was my first foster cat fail. I adopted him." Love it! You've made my night,

Take care. Speak tomorrow.

[rav3n]

hey @Bow how are you? how'd the arts class go yesterday?

[Ru-bee]

Hey @Bow just wanted to check in on how this morning went?

[AuntGlow]

I think getting out and connecting with others really does improve our wellbeing. Even if we don't always feel it, we are social creatures as humans. @Bow 

I understand that you'd want to be engaged when you go though, so I think it's very proactive of you to take your own activities. 

The chill and chat groups sound fantastic! Sitting and listening is more than okay, I can imagine you'd get a lot from it. Do you think if you went to them over time, they might help you to explore sharing more about how you're feeling verbally, but in a lighter way (so, less pressure)? 🤔

[Bow]

Hi @Ru-bee  

just got home from my psychologist appointment and have made myself comfy on the couch. My cat has already come and curled up on my lap too.

my SW called this morning but I didn’t feel able to talk. I sent her a photo of one of my communication cards that said I had something I needed to say. She normally says that she will meet me at health but she didn’t so assumed she wasn’t available. She called and texted while I was typing up stuff. 
I texted her everything that has been in my head this past week. High SI, contemplating, plans, hard to distract and then the confronting feeling of inevitability. And then I hit send. Haven’t heard anything yet. 

Psychology appointment. It was ok? Told her a bit of what’s been happening while she was away. She mentioned talking about what the plan is for when she goes on mat leave and I said yes I want to know, but she asked if there was anything that needed prioritizing first and I told her yeah… I really ain’t been ok this last week.  I told her most of what I sent to my SW. she asked if I had a timeframe, and I said well nothing locked in, but it’s something I constantly find myself thinking about. And then she asked if I had been hoarding things. I said no. And it was pretty much left at that. 😩

was I expecting more? Probably? What was I expecting? I don’t know? More care? More concern?