I can’t cope

[Captain24]

I’m so sorry @tyme Im such a loser. 

So far I’m safe but I’m in a bit of trouble. It was all leading this way anyway. 

Do you have spare time to chat? I need something 

[tyme]

Yo, I'm around 🙂 @Captain24 

What would be helpful at this moment?

[Captain24]

I still have tears but I’ve stopped sobbing @tyme It does feel like a little release though. I actually feel a little safer. I know that sounds weird.

Im watching the new season of ‘Ginny and Georgia’ on Netflix. I’m struggling to stay focused though. 

Do you know that in 10 days I’ll have been here for 3 years? You were the first to comment and I’ve never forgotten it! 

I just need some support to get through. I’m really struggling as you can tell from my over the top reaction. Maybe just some company when you have spare time. 

Do you ever put jackets on Ruby? 

[tyme]

HUgs @Captain24 ,

I'm glad it feels like a bit of a relief. 

3 years! Wow! That's so awesome. And fancy that - I was the first to post to you.

Did you know I recently went back to my first EVER post on the forums when I was a member? It was in 2017 or something. It was because someone was asking about BPD, and I responded about what helped me.

It was strange following my own recovery journey lol. 

I reckon it may feel similar for you too.

Arghhh......life is one strange thing.

Ruby? I honestly feel like I've neglected her. I haven't been taking her out for walks because it's' been so cold and I haven' tbeen home much. And no, I don't have a jacket for her. She's mainly inside so we have the heater on. She has a new collar that has a red bow... it's pretty cute. My sister bought it. I told my sis that Ruby looks like a christmas present lol.

The other day, I read that Pix was dragging her bum around.. did she end up ok?

[Captain24]

That would be an interesting journey to follow @tyme. Where you were and where you are now. That’s a journey. 

Yep.. you were the first. I have read through some of them but I’m a completely different person now and have way more understanding of what and how I’m feeling. I don’t seem to be in a much better place but there has been a lot of growth!

The cold makes it hard. Ruby won’t care how cold it is but I guess you do. 

Mums been walking my two in the cold. Pix has a new harness and so her jacket doesn’t fit. She doesn’t need it yet but Jetts got a parka to walk in and I put I jumper on him if it’s not warm enough for him inside. He gets really cold really quickly. 

There was a frost on my car this morning and yesterday morning. It’s been really cold on nightshifts. 

Yeah. Pix is fine. I’m assuming she got over it as mum never told me that she had to take her to the vet and she doesn’t stink like she’d been. 

That sound so cute.

[tyme]

I think it's 13 degrees here today @Captain24 . I feel it. Melb cold bites.

I totally agree with you. In a way, I don't think you haven't progressed either. In a way, I feel you have become more aware of your mental health. I can actually see you have done a lot of learning on your journey. You aren't at the place you want to be YET, but you have learnt a lot. This is my observation too.

MH is a journey. Remember I mentioned that mine took at least 15 years to get somewhere? I hope it doesn't take THAT long for you, but if it does, we're here.

What is this show you are watching?

[Captain24]

It’s 6 degrees here feels like 2! @tyme. It gets bitterly cold here. I think there must be snow around. 

The fact that I can see growth is growth within its self. I have learnt so much and I think I’ve grown under this psych too. She points out growth in every single session! I’m glad that you can see it. For me it shows you that I really am trying. 

I have moments of being in the place I want to be but they are only fleeting in amongst varying levels of depression. 

I hope it doesn’t take that long either. I’m kinda hoping that if and when I get off these meds (if I can do it) get the adhd assessment completed and medicated accordingly I should start to come around. 

It’s on Netflix. It’s this messed up mother raising her two kids. She will do anything for them but has lived a checkered life while raising and protecting them. 

This keeps appearing when I try to like a post 

 

[Jynx]

Hiya @Captain24 😊

Just been catching up on what you've been up to. How are you this evening?

Also, totally a known issue now, it's happening to me as well! Only when supporting a post right? 

We've flagged it with all the right peeps. For now, I seem to have kind of found a work around - try supporting a different post on the same thread and then refreshing the page before trying the support button on the original post again. Lemme know if that helps! 

[Captain24]

Yeah.. I’ve been a bit of a hot mess today. @Jynx. At least this cry was only an hour not an hour and a half. I haven’t been able to sleep since I couldn’t take that med this morning. No sleep isn’t helping.

Liking your post worked but I can’t make anything else work. At least it’s not me. I thought I must have been in trouble for something

[tyme]

We can be in this hot mess together @Captain24  🙂

I'll share my enthusiasm with you in sitting with you hun.

You're amazing as you are. Please never look your character and personality. I reckon you'd be so fun to be around...coffee and brunch with...walk along the beach with 🙂