I can’t cope

[Snowie]

The recovery thing is hard @Captain24 I am struggling with understanding it and putting it into practice. I also don't think that it is an overnight thing.

I don't think that they expect us just to snap our fingers, and we can do it straight away.

Will it help? Sometimes it might but not all of the time.

Will it take time? Of course, just like anything new.

There are going to be times where being recovery focused is going to be really difficult, especially when we are having a bad/difficult time. We are not going to be able to do it all of the time. I don't think they expect us too.

Again, like you I have my reservations. But I have told myself firstly to give myself time and also not to be too hard on myself. 

[Captain24]

Hey @tyme 

It does but I’m scared I’ll do it wrong and get in trouble. I’d rather ban myself than get banned by you guys. 

Im so sorry for being so useless about it all but I’m really scared. 

Right now I have a lot of thoughts and too scared to share them. 

[AuntGlow]

I can hear and completely understand your distress @Captain24, this change is a lot. And we don't expect you to adapt immediately. Please know we don't want you to feel alone or silenced. Your voice is important, and a recovery-focused approach doesn't mean you aren't allowed to share, okay? 🥰

Maybe we can start with how your body is feeling and work towards some soothing from there? 💛

[Captain24]

I’m crying @AuntGlow. I’m not a crier 

[AuntGlow]

What is it like to allow yourself to feel fully? 💛

[Captain24]

I hate it. I’ve been crying on and off all day @AuntGlow 

[AuntGlow]

It certainly sounds like there are big feelings coming up for you @Captain24. Crying all day must feel really exhausting... if you check in with yourself, what does your body need most right now? 💛

[Captain24]

I’m tired. I’m aching. My hip is so sore that I can’t put my foot on the ground. @AuntGlow 

I haven’t done much today other than sit on the lounge and have a nap. I don’t know what my body needs. 

[AuntGlow]

That sounds very uncomfortable for you... 😔 @Captain24 

You don't need to have all the answers right now, that's okay. 

Would gentle stretching help at all? Or maybe even the warmth of a shower/bath? Perhaps even moving to your bed? 💛

[Captain24]

It’s too early to take the dogs to bed. @AuntGlow. I could try a hot shower. Stretching won’t help my hip. It’s internal, it’s bone.