I can’t cope

[Jynx]

I always appreciate the trust @Captain24 and never want to take it for granted. It's a precious thing, and it's super meaningful to me that I've earned it. 

Oh nooooo doesn't that mean they have worms?! My dog growing up would do that and we'd give her a worming chocolate and I always remember being jealous 🤣🤣

[Captain24]

I don’t trust easily. @Jynx 

Nah she doesn’t have worms. Sometimes their butt glands get swollen and need to be expressed. I’ve tee’d mum up to take her if it doesn’t settle down. I can’t leave her like that until I have time.

Pix is asking for a treat so she is annoying me! Jett is being sweet and is asleep on my lap. It’s not often I say that! 

How’s things going with your partners? 

Sorry.. I just need to chat for distraction. It’s quite difficult at the moment. I don’t want to take your time though so if you don’t have time it’s ok. 

[Jynx]

@Captain24 omg sounds stinky lol yeah definitely fob that off on your mum 🤣

aww whaaaat is it opposite day for the doggos ahaha

Hmm different topic to that one then for distracty chats, cos uhh... things are tense lol. Let's talk about craft or something instead? 

[Captain24]

It does stink! @Jynx 

I know it’s a bit different to normal. At least he isn’t in my face right now! 

I did some online shopping today. I ordered a paint by numbers. I hate it but thought I’d give it another chance. I did also order some more Lego. 

[Jynx]

Hahaha you hate it @Captain24 so what made you wanna give it another chance? I almost picture you like "NO I REFUSE TO NOT BE ENTERTAINED BY THIS" 🤣

[Captain24]

It was a picture of an eastern rosella. So it sucked me in @Jynx. I’m not sure I’ll try it anytime soon though. That is what I’m like. One and done. If I don’t like it once I’m done but the picture was what got me. 

I need more space to set up my stuff to do. There is only so much room. I need a bigger house! 

[Jynx]

Aww I love rosellas @Captain24 I totally get it!! Have I shown you the tea towel I have hanging on my wall? Yes, I liked it that much I refuse to use it for its intended purpose ahaha

[Captain24]

No you haven’t shown me @Jynx. My favourite bird is the eastern rosella. I love the colour and we had one as a kid. His name was Joe. If his cage was outside in the rain he would sing out ‘what about the birdie. What about the birdie’ it was so cute. He use to call the dog ‘tiny, tiny’ then when tiny was trying to get to him. ‘Doggies getting the birdie, doggies getting the birdie’ 

I’ve done a diamond art of a rosella! 

I’ve taken my meds but it was a struggle I wanted to take more of that one. It’s really hard. 

[Jynx]

@Captain24 here!! They're crimson rosella's not eastern, but I have a lil special connection to the crimson ones cos mum and I used to go feeding them when we went to this rainforest resort called O'Reilly's. Which I highly recommend to everyone who loves rainforests! 

That's soooooo pretty!! Love it!! 

You got this hun! 💪 Got some lego or something to keep your hands busy till it's sleepy time? 

Imma be wrapping on up soon just so you know!! 

[Captain24]

That tea towel is cool and I love that there is a story behind it. @Jynx 

This is something I’ve been fighting 3+ times a day for weeks. I’ve just done it silently. Alone. No one knew. 

My mood has just dropped that wave I was talking about has just come over. I feel really low and dark. I feel sick with the thoughts.